Day one Kathmandu, Nepal Wed 9th April 2014
Day one of this round of the travels draws to a close. Considering that I didn’t get out of bed till 12 today, I got a lot done.
Breakfast at 12.30. Late start is due to mixture of effects from the flight and the beer last night!! Ended up going out with a few that I met in hostel. 2 Americans, 2 German girls, a Swiss, a Belgian and a girl from Naas!! Good enough night but strange vibe at times!
Had some dinner & then to bar. Then another bar, which was fairly weird. Feeling of tension in the air. Unnecessary tension. A lot of indecision, impatience and narkyness. Exactly why I don’t really travel in groups. People wanting to do different things. Some wanting to do their thing and being bossy. Others wanting to do their own thing but ending up feeling awkward. Ensuring to avoid confrontation at all costs and ending up being too overly accommodating. Nobody satisfied, only frustrated. Great freedom comes while travelling alone. And yet we must learn to handle these group scenarios, or we will end up hermits on the road. Travelling alone is great, yet meeting the people remains the best part of travelling. It’s funny. I value very much spending time alone, and still I regard meeting others as the most important part of the adventure. As I was to learn and be reminded of continuously this year, the key word is BALANCE. A crucial part of life is to have balance in what you do. Crucial.
While out last night, we got onto the subject of age. I felt a bit awkward when I was one of the oldest there, at 29. 29? How the hell am I 29? What the hell am I doing here? Am I too old to be at this craic? Was I nuts to leave home and all that I left behind to go doing this? The negative thoughts creep in and once again, I deeply question my decision which has taken me here. 30 soon………No house, no job, not married, a car fit for the scrapyard!!!! Hard to believe I will be 30 soon. My new temporary friends were shocked at how old I was and how young I looked!!! Made me feel old hanging with them, who were from 19-23 and one was older than me. Looking at it honestly, I have to admit that I envy their youth. But I realise this is an unhealthy state of mind, to envy others youth. This mindset will only get worse as I get older. An attitude like this will only ensure resentment and discontent.
I must learn from this. Learn the lesson that time is precious and we must ensure to make the most of our time. Time passes for everyone and cannot be bought. Money can buy your house, your nice clothes, your car but no amount of cash will buy you time. Someday, our time will be coming to an end on this planet and I wonder how will each of us look back on how we spent our time here.
Will we be satisfied with how we utilised our precious time???
Will we be happy with what we have experienced and content that we have lived our life to the full?? Or will we look back with sorrow and regret that we carelessly wasted our time, living most of our lives blindly on autopilot????
I know I will probably look back at 39 and laugh that I thought 29 was getting on!! I will think of all time I had ahead of me. I am vowing now to enjoy things more because someday I will look back and envy all the time I had ahead of me………….
So much living to do.
So many places to visit, foods to taste, people to meet and moments to enjoy!!!
I can sometimes be a worrier & can let the small things stress me out. But I can also be brave and am motivated to put myself out there. I must stop worrying about the future and what I will do when I return. I’ve just left and thoughts of what I will do on my return have already entered my mind. Pointless, yet I can’t help it. Must enjoy the experience I’m having now and worry about the future when I get there!!! I reflect back on my time in France when I had back trouble and it makes me feel very grateful to be here in Kathmandu at all. About to embark on a journey and a dream that I’ve had for a very long time. Not even about to embark on, but actually already on!! The wheels are in motion !!
Who knows what lies ahead.
Who knows where it will take me.
Who knows what doors will be opened for me, that I never even knew existed!!
Exciting times ahead.